No words that is what comes to my mind first. Dr. Abdel we have so many similarities :). I wrote my first book and self bublished on Amazon then I wrote the second one and published that one as well. Probably you can find it with yours barried under the 7 feet of death of books on Amazon. Started to work on my third...why? I think I need to tell a story. I encourage you to keep publishing, one day maybe some people will like what we write.... I have a note posted on my desk stating:" Never give up" (This was very helpful though my PhD program and when I was looking for a job after and did not find one) I also self published on Barnes and Nobles. My first book was about addiction sold close to 50 copies (5 was mine that I gave away to people) as I worked in the addiction field for a long time, the second was poetry and short stories - 2 whole people bought that one:) Then I decided to record it and put the free audio files on my website. And...people have been downloading it...I guess you just never know...I have the same student debt and the Dr. in front of my name. Mine is in public health to serve others....same not helpful to pay the debt. I was also born in another county in Hungary and forgot to breath when I was born for a while....I was 2 months early. Did not look good, yet here I am. I will follow you so be closer to the 100. I am also in the same shoe in that department and need more people to reach my 100 by December. You sond like an amazing person and I am grateful that you are writing and you are here. Glad you took that breath and learned to swim....Take care and wish you all the best,

Gabriella